Veryowned-SIMPLICITY

2012

2012-02-04T00:44:00.000+08:00

FEBRUARY ALREADY!!

Hi hi ppl! HOWS LIFE FOR YOU GUYS??? Time is just passing by so fast! Gosh, how much have i wasted or gained through out all these years?? i wonder...

Resolutions? seems hard to me! gosh, really have been doing everything aimlessly! i don't know what i have been working on sometimes too!

1) Studies/ university if possible?

2) WSS "chiong only"

3) Wushu : train harder to lose weight again! haha!

4) actually not what i have in mind....

What's been bothering me is how am i gonna survive in the outside world?

Loads to learn, but i don't want to be those that gets pulled around all the time.

dinner with my poly besties.

:) let the pics do the talking. hahah!

At RSH trying out ferrari jacket! damn nice!!

love it alot!

Dinner at Carl Jr! Damn was i full of the burger sia!

dam big i swear!!

Ben Acting cute again. hahaha!

best bro heheh

Miss chili padie~

aahaha

Miss Miao miao~

one more missing though... PT...

zilian boy~ ahaha

Seriously like gay right?? haha! gaygay boy sio!

and the rest are all random pics which i took after i eat! hahaha

Act cute shot 1

Act cute shot 2

Act cute shot 3

Neoprint!

Although we aren't very close yet, but i have always liked your smile! :)

i look so dam weird with my fringe on the other side!!

And that concludes all! got a new running shoe! but a missing G-SHOCK watch.

RIP g-shock.

you served me for less then a year...

but yeah..

time to head for the bed...

long day tmr. yawns~ hope my injured wrist gets better tmr...

nites ppl.

xoxo

Blocks and chunks of stuff in my head.

2012-01-05T00:19:00.001+08:00

FEELING HEAVY, WITH MY BIG HEAD.

i think i forget to mention abt the fat body too..... AHAHAH

Haha, even though today wasn't such a "Wonderful" day, its still a day i learnt alot. So instead on looking at ALL negative stuff, just put it behind me and move on.

Its gonna be a rough year ahead, CAN ALREADY FEEL IT. hahaha.
but yeah, it feels just so... idk how to explain this feeling but its always nice to pour things out, in this blog of mine. don know abt you guys, but sometimes saying it out, typing out sort of helps? To me it does, when ever i feel stress up, weird, heart broken *sob sob*, happy, as in all sorts of emotions, if given the right time, i will blog. haha like now? :)

i live life spending too much time trying to change, impress, live up to a person i'm really not. but is this all part of self improvement?
I've realise i really spend too much time frowning, live your life with a wide smile each day! motivation almost from all corners. hahahaha

sound really random this last few lines.
but its fun to visit this place once in awhile~

going off now.
Be back soon with more stuff i hope!
xoxo

*do i really still not like you ?

Tired, but its not an excuse to stop

2011-12-18T01:51:00.001+08:00

my eyes are like this now....

Feeling tired, with everything and everyone on my tail. scared to fail, not being able to meet up to expectations... never in my life i have felt like this.
" what brings you down, will also makes you stronger"

yes i agree, but to what extend can you do it?
its all in the brain, all up in that mentality and personality of yours.
but i seriously thinks that i'm not up to it.
no matter what happens, press on. thats all i know what to do now.
making the right decision and stuffs. having to think alot before acting.
arghhh~
its just vexing. but thats how i work, how i do.
super easy to give up, but don forget what held you on for so long.
after months, when you come back and read this.
i will believe that i won't regret
to future me, jiayous. this is not the end.
strive for what you wan, wss, wushu, friends or whatever.
put in 100% each time, don let your time go to waste.
jiayous jiayi.

never giving up. till i pass that line.

out now.
xoxo

Devil?

2011-12-14T16:41:00.000+08:00

I bring the knife into her chest.

Her eyes are closing.

She is pleading with me so I bring the knife to her again and again.

I don't want to hurt her but I need to do violence to her ...

I need to overcome her beauty, her serenity, her security.

There I see her face when she died.

I know she feels her life being slowly drawn from her and I hear her gasp.

I guess she was trying to breathe.

some killing game?

depends...

xoxo

death shall be my final project

Reminisce?

2011-12-13T01:45:00.001+08:00

Every year today, i havent forgetten abt you.
every year today, i will send you a text.
a simple happy birthday.
mixed emotitons.
12/13.... a date forever in my heart i guess.
happy birthday cheerful girl. :)

New hoodie by sis and jie fu!
love it! a DOREMON now!

*DOREMON GIANT*

hahah... just a short break from studying. cant seem to keep it on the right track. haha. back to studying!

A song to bring me back to where i started seeing you...

out~
xoxo

busy busy

2011-12-05T23:11:00.001+08:00

Busy, real busy. i feel as if my whole life for this sem is really fucked up. REALLY LITERALLY FKED UP...

- am not catching up with class
-bloody tired for class
-falling asleep in class
-fail to complete tutorials and revisions
-lateness! gosh... its catching up real fast!
-laziness
-not having a clue to alot of simple stuff
- HOW??

really is so dam alot of stuff. time management. i really got to handle it well. Just keep pushing on ba... tmr microcontroller test. seems as if can do it. but tmr get question sure stun one. thurs anatomy... haven even teach finish. -.- i also haven fininsh studying. so skipped wushu today and tmr to keep up... maybe skip on wed too?... really got to study ah!

meanwhile.. stuff going on with my friend is really bad... mum in hospital.. wonder how will she cope.. hope she will do fine... take care from here...

i'm gonna accomplish what i have in mind. even though its crazy just thinking abt it. but yeap. with this remaining 1.5 years of my "youth" i would say. i'm gonna do it. but for now....

STUDY.

Try again, even if you fall.

fav couple now !:)

talk abt it next time when i'm more free~

Signing out now.

Nights x0x0

Loved? or love?

2011-12-04T01:24:00.001+08:00

SUPER BUSY WEEK AHEAD! haven really started studying! OMG-ing can! hahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Lol i sound crazy~ being crazy and hype this few days. haha! currently listening to rapping by eminem! he's good! really good! the only rapper i like? hahaha! random. but today was quite a awesome day. Went back school, helped with the scenes. alot of stuff lacking but its coming along. just afraid that they can't cope with the upcoming week. its gonna be tough and rough! just got so interested to SKYRIM....asking wenlong how is it again! hahahaha~ :D

Well studying later i guess.... nah don think will go ck hse. sleep and wake study! micro and bio~ :D jiayous jiayous waaaa really feel like going! being so indecisive! just go ba! hahahaa shall stop here le! seeya~

keep thinking. but its impossible. even bro code says to not get her...
should i just stop here?
and G is gonna become such a fine lady... hahahaaa XD
Out now~
:)

SO LONG~

2011-12-02T05:01:00.001+08:00

Been so long since i last updated my blog! but before i start anything! a joke first!!

"What do you call when a midget waves at you?"

Ans: "MICRO"-WAVE! hahahahaa

NO offense but yeah! Its 5.02am in the morning... and i'm like awake?edited the blog and typing one super fast post now! hehe, waking at 6.45 to go sch~ test later. so very not prepared can! ahaha anyways, competition has ended! all was well! NYP team did a wonderful job i would say! but continue to work hard!! jiayous! currently busy with CT, home coming and BBQ Stuff! lookin so forward to all this! :D hell LOADS of fun!

December is here already. Soon its gonna be another year pass my back.. Time seems to be moving at a very very fast pace. so fast that i find it tiring to keep up to him/her? but its the learning process that helps smoothen it all. Continue to strive for a better result, a better future!

Haha, random thoughts now. Due to my dyed hair, alot are saying i'm attached! hahaa funny max, well, if possible get one soon? hahaha! but yeah. meanwhile sit back and relax only.

AND I MUST BE CRAZY YESTERDAY.....
your single "bleah" kept me thinking the whole day....

too bad you aren't available.

TIME TO CRASH!

BLOG SOON! :D

JOKES

2011-11-10T01:14:00.002+08:00

Quoted from a person whom i look up to very much. Pls don blame me for copying your idea. its just too funny ~ :)

1)
man tou(bun) and cha siew bao(pork meat bun) went to watch a movie.
why cha siew bao cry and man tou did not cry?

Ans: cha siew bao got fillings(feelings)

2)
cha siew bao went to watch movie wif da bao(big meat bun)
cha siew bao cry but why da bao cry even louder?

Ans: da bao got more fillings(feelings)

3)
da bao went to watch movie wif cai bao(veg bun)
why cai bao cry but da bao did not?

Ans: they watch liao zai( the chinese show 聊斋） )

4)
cha siew bao went to watch movie with ji bao(chicken bun)
ji bao cry but why cha siew bao did not cry

Ans: cos this is the third time cha siew bao is watching

5)
guess cha siew bao gender?

Ans: female pig cos the first show she watch wif man tou(Man head, u see is a man)

6)
After watching the show wif ji bao, cha siew bao was dump.
why?

Ans: cos ji bao feel cha siew bao is a flirt cos he is not the first guy she has watch the show wif. How he knows. Cos cha siew bao got fillings also no cry.

7)
Last qns, cha siew bao gif a explaination why she din cry, she was lying.
guess wads her lie?

Ans: she said:"i jus had my implant remove, so i have empty fillings now."

Can understand? hahah! didnt know you were such a good jokes man! hehe.
lifes is ups and downs now. coughing real bad this few days. trying to catch up on both wushu and studies.

Hwaiting man... hahah but yeah! well done to jiti peeps and rest. one down, one more to go. jiayous ppl!

Gotta settle admin stuff.
signing out.
:p

mixed feeling

2011-09-28T07:28:00.002+08:00

Early in the morning each day....
But i still don't know if what i'm doing each day is right...
is it for you?...

Crank....

2011-09-27T01:57:00.002+08:00

I don't know abt you but yeah.
if its causing you all this pain and suffering.
i will be the one stepping out.
since all this was all cus of me.
sry to have you going through all this again.
you will never hear of it again.

all those that i have done,
yes, i thought abt how it affects you.
little did i know its till such a big extend.
i still cant forgive myself of what i did.
but dose it really matters now?.....
at least now i know you will be happy.
and i guess thats all that matters. :)
stay happy, move on and forget abt the past.
don forget to keep Smiling~

its the last, definitely.

goodbye~ ......

lost, forgotten. thrown and gone. but still SIMPLY TIRED....

2011-09-21T00:59:00.000+08:00

Woah, a change for blogger. hahaha just here to let out some stuff and yeah, revive this very dead blog of mine . hahah. find it still amazing that i still keep up with this. cause i don't really like to write dairy, wait, i mean i don't really keep a dairy, meaning writing each and everything in it each day or week. haha! although my sis managed to do it though.... Can never be like her.

at this time , wondering whats she's doing......

well~ holiday for me is just another time thats busy for me without studying. cool right? no studies still can busy. haha! yeah got work + wushu + world skills~ hahaha idk but even if its tiring i want to give it all a try. Work was always good. haha made new friends and stuff. got to know Doufu even better. haha its fun working with them, well cause it gives me the same feel as being in a team. but for my own team, i don know how to manage them. like really, how to bring the team out from them... Its something i'm still figuring out. i hope i can do it. no, like what mr tay says " don try, do it. " i find it motivating though. haha! alot of motivators in my life, alot of them has touched me, the biggest group would by far be my wushu besties ba. i don't regret joining wushu, even with the others of my friends thinking its a waste of time or money, no, i don't regret. i enjoy it, i wanna enjoy it even more then before, the sense of satisfactions, its just simply too good. and unlike before, determinations comes into play even more. and i' m determined to bring the team up.
But its not only me, its my whole team together.

For all wushu friends,bestie, brother, sister.
thanks for helping me all along. i think quite a big weight to help ba. hahah those who helped before would know. but yeah, thats alot for helping.
Those who are there for me, cant thank you enough. you know who you all are ba. :)

after all this stuffs going through my head, i'm still quite stressed~ LOL... hahaha pointless. but anyway just a short post on how my lifes been.
Its PACKED, thats for sure that i can say. hahahaha~

idk if you will ever see this, i doubt so ba.
every single day that you are happy, i'm happy for you,
every single time you post stuff abt you and him, i'm even more happy for you.
i will just stand by, a place where its the closest i can get to you but at yet the furthest place from you.
I' finally understand the pain and suffering you have been through, and i know its only the tip of the ice berg i'm experiencing...
but i'm not gonna move ba.
last long.
thats all i wish from here.
i will just carry on, with all the little pain and sufferings by my self ba.
fyi, what i post is what is meant for you.
its words from me to you.
but well. never gonna see this anyways.

thats all for the nite.
post again soon.
NIghts folks.

Feelings

2011-08-16T16:24:00.000+08:00

Yosh people. hahaha been slacking today! although yesterday did quite abit of studying! hehe later coming home turn in early. tmr morning muggggggg~ waahahah theres still maths to clear. OMG lo. hahahhaha how i wish its 1st of sept already.....

been reading love stories quotes and anime! hahah so sweeet and romantic sia~ understand how it really makes someone wanting to fall in love. but does it really last? does relationship last now?? is it worth having to be cheated all this while? idk but it seems to me this way. to fall in love, is so god dam easy. so does breaking up now....

"i swear to never make you cry".... i like this sentence alot. don know why.. jus being plain random seh. but to leave up to what you say is another thing! hahahahahah going jurong now. just a short post to say what i'm thinking.
lastly, for couples out there. last long :))

out now~ beebo beebo beebo~ :)

Listen to my heart!

2011-08-15T00:20:00.001+08:00

not listeningggggg~ hahaha! random post! today just abit high and low~ tmr's start of study mugging and studying and mugging and studying and mugging! x100000~ haaha jiayous jiayi! :)

didnt get to see her today ~ sadded~ next time must! hope she don get too much skin off her later when she wakes? hahahaa! hahahahaha dam beat now! shall turn in soon. found a new anime! MAYO CHIKI !!

SUBARU KONOE! <3

so kawaii! love this pic too much!!

they look so adorable! :) give this anime a try! its nice! :)

enough fetish for the nite! hahaha! gonna sleep! nights ppl!

new wall

2011-08-14T02:56:00.001+08:00

I FEEL THAT MY BLOG IS LEGEND- WAIT FOR IT- DARY~ :)

settling emotions

2011-08-14T02:20:00.000+08:00

Hey guys :)
Been awhile huh? hahah finally decided to dedicate some time before i head to sleep on this blog of mine. i have made decisions, with regards to my very own future. i wonder will it help? or will it pull me down even more. as its hard to look for any seniors to help, i turned to almost anyone possible. really, seeing what the teachers put in for us, i just cant bear to leave all like this. i wanna have a chance to compete at the top with the rest, i don wan to be always looking at how they can soar all the way up and i'm only there standing. really, as soon as it starts, it means less time with friends, less time for wushu, less time for family, no time for myself..... is this really what i can live with?

But now is no more dream talking, its realistic talking now. its results, results and results. Been unsure and lost, as if a wandering soul on earth. but now it seems better. i can picture what i want, and i'm going for it. having a better future not only for me, also for my family :)

GONNA GO grading like in sep! omg please! just now do the routine for long weapon is soooo cmi! hahah but i did improve! i did add what i wan in my routine! :) happy! will continue to work hard! even though it has not much of a future for me, maybe not? but i will not give up on wushu. its a hobby, a interest that had mould me into who i am today. having all the frens around me, close to being with sister and family. i like it this way. i may not be the good or even up to standard, but i will try, i will give everything a try from now. no more like before, after what third aunt told me, its like why not try? thats why i will regard everything differently now :) and i'm happy with it!

gonna go meet someone later, someone who once stole my heart :< hahahah! but good frens now i guess~ ? hahah hope she do well with the carnival! :)) see you later~ today greenridge was good? :) although i don think its the most productive, but yeah~ sad to see a few of the more serious students leave.. did my part, but could have done more! but anyways~ all the best to your studies student at greenridge! esp those taking PSLE this year! best of luck to you all :)

TIME FOR BED! BYES~
we have been so near yet so far. sometimes i jus don know what you are thinking. standing from a far~ only.

何維健－每時每刻（Official 官方完整版）

NICE! :D like it! hahaha

filed time.

2011-08-01T00:40:00.000+08:00

BOO~ sup peeps! back in the house now~ hahah! SUPA long no post! really been awhile since i last posted~ but anyway, life for me is good now! although abit more harsh, abit more tough, abit more bitter and stuff. still manageable! and now its constantly filled with surprises! hahaha except the fact that text also comes with surprises~ hahaha! but yeah!

but as time passes, i cant help to come down to the fact that really, i don don have the time like before. and my studies is/are really falling down.. shucks. everytime i say study i play. everytime i play i think of study. wat in the world is this haleluya to my exams. hope i can still maintain. hahahaha

WSS, no hope le la! but don wanna give up so easily~ wat mr tay and the others had put in me, i will try to do well. although the hopes of getting in is no more high cus i wanna do my own stuff! pursue in bio medical in furture. haha although it sounds boring, i hope i can do it. helping people in the future. but idk.

ndp is coming to an end. shuckss... don cry cus its over, smile cus it happened:) will never forget the experience we all had! hahah hope we will have a final blow on 9 august and enjoy to our heart max :)

grp photo with NDP PEEPS! WOOTS~

a mutual feeling perhaps?

idk.

haha time to rest and wake to study tmr. nites peeps.

nites world.

Sentosa~

2011-06-19T15:14:00.002+08:00

ON 16 june!

sentosa with the musketeer and bros! :D

fun fun FUN!

not to mention get to see BIKINI BABES!

WOOOTS LALALA :) HAHAHAHAH but was fun!

so long no relax and enjoy the cool breeze, warm sunlight and the chilling water!

hahahaha get to spent some times with my old sec sch frens~ shiok lo!

talk, eat, play, walk till drop and play " CAUSE LIPS CAN TOUCH" HAHAHAH

think all of them are sick and tired of me saying that! esp hui xin ba! AHAHAHHAHA

some pics to show wat has happened! :D

*order should be the other way round!!

CANNOT IMAGINE I ACTUALLY DID THIS! WAHAHAHHA

GRP PHOTO

HANDSOME BOIS~

HAHAHAH VAMP HUI XIN

GRP PHOTO 2!

MOST DASHING ONE : ) *wilson : OI DON BHB LA!

4-1 musketeers!

OPPS! THIS PHOTO NOT SUPPOSE TO BE HERE!!

but still gotta thank the photography for this...

HAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!

wahahahha really was a fun day!

then today sian sio! gotta study now! no soccer for todayyy!!! NOOOOO

but later going cousin hse stayover! :P

FUN!

was really a fun week for me.

not to forget abt the get together with mah tini ~ :D

heheh well, after all this, its back to studies and work!

enjoy yr life while you can, play it to the max and the fullest!
off now~
adios folks!

思想

2011-06-17T01:34:00.000+08:00

DEAD BLOG UPDATEDING

wagagagaa super long long time no blog le!

wat a feeling~ beeen storing up all the stuff in me

and it feels as if its gonna overflow~ you know you know??? wahahha

sorry, but its gonna be a short post.

stuff just happens... even though its a fun day for me, its a day that draws back memory...

shall write till here.

nites

Memories...

Late nite.

2011-05-07T02:42:00.000+08:00

Late nite post.

the flame guiding me.

the support i have.

but its still me who fights on.

never gonna back down.

i'm getting ignorant.

i'm starting to lose sight to stuffs

i'm losing all the tiny stuff that needs to be taken care of.

i'm losing it.

with great power, comes great responsibility.

2011-04-26T01:24:00.000+08:00

so much stuff happened.
so much stuff changed....
life isnt simple anymore.
how to live a life till its simple?.. anyone can teach?

sorry if i was mad at you all wat, jus sometimes, the way your words comes at me, its so dam true.
and i jus cant seems to not think of it. lol. i know you is out your heart to help me.. but i jus seems so dam helpless rite? being pulled along like a dog or so. being used like free de. yeah... i understand.
as much as the situation seems...idk how to change it, only by learning it the hard way. all the shit, jus take and share. lol....just still trying to adjust to this sudden change.... its... its jus so argh!!!!!

really dam dam dam dam.... trying so hard to change, to be a better pres, to do a better job.
but all seems so no use. ARGH......
So much stuff on... i took on more. worldskills? dpp?...like this cca small stuff cannot handle. all those how?!?!??

HOW?????
LIKE REALLY. HOW????
seriously, fuck it. learning to take my stand now.
yes, in some sense, i'm like yr dog. but at the same time. i am trying to look up to you as a fren, coach yes. but others, fren. its so so so diff now... so diff from b4.
but yeah, like you said, so much stuff, you think i will bother to look into it?
no la of cus. not happy is yr problem.

not forgetting all this.
not forgetting, who to listen? who to trust?
only i know... for now.
well... lets just give it a rest.

nites.

Never give in to "give up"

2011-04-14T00:06:00.002+08:00

Don't Quit
When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow,
Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

Life to me now is getting bumpy...
but i will hang on.
write again soon
:)

欺骗着自己的我....

2011-04-07T02:20:00.000+08:00

大家好~哈哈！好像又好久没post blog了．．．
想必这也没人看．．哈哈近来真的发生了太多事情了．．一时变的有点不知所措．．．该这么办呢？．．．朋友之间的友情，现实的残酷．．．我们真的必须从中学起吗？必须失去了才知道什么叫珍惜吗？难道就没有一个能让你做了不后悔的方法吗？．．．我真的好后悔．．好后悔．．

长久一来，我一直欺骗着自己．．．欺骗着自己的我．．．
看着镜子时，　不在是以前的曾加宜．．　真的不知道自己是谁了．．
当和你在一起说话时,仿佛变回了以前的我．但还是很清楚自己没变回．
看透了以前的自己有多愚蠢，多幼稚．
看透了以前的爆炤的性格．．．懒散及粗略的形象．．．
做了好多后悔的事．．．但也已经过去了．．
好想看一看自己．看一看完全的自己．没有伪装，没有任何东西．．
看一看自己到底是一个什么样的人．．．
自己还会再变好吗？．．．

真的累了．．
感觉自己好像老了好多．．
但，虽然在着世界越旧,越多让你不开心的时，可是这可多了须多理由为什么要开心的过着每一天．因为着样人生才有乐趣．．．

累了．先睡觉了．
大家晚安．．．．

missing out?

2011-03-20T02:04:00.000+08:00

hey guys... long time no hear from me ah? hahaha..been quite busy, stress and all sorts of other stuff

. jus back from a frens bbq~ hahaha later training ! sensation sia.. but being there for awhile really made me to forget who i really am, not the wushu kid, not the wanna study/ aiming go uni boy. its like, its stress-free?

a drug centre for me? laughter, enjoy, play. all sorts of things going on. really miss the times when we all were still young kids running around our few blocks, playing basketball, playing yugioh and beyblade. hahah! really, childhood memories..

but what do i miss out? i miss out on studying, i miss out on wushu... there no such thing as a 2 perfect trade. its always give and take, u miss out playing, in return to train and study. its jus how stuff works... but sometimes, do u ever wonder wat u give up for another thing is worth it? idk.. why am i saying stuff like this. may be due to the stuff that jus gotten on to me...

competition in like one month? and i haven really complete my da dao routine. abit cui. not really cui.... idk. today at ubi training totally no mood.. and my baji... its totally not there at ALL.... really not there.. maybe wat shi fu said made me abit no feel of going on... " your ba ji is still immature...." once i hear it.... at first i though it was jus a comment, but as i think future, it had a greater meaning... and i can only look down silently in deep of his words.. wat gy coach teach me, wat eric coach teach me, wat my wushu besties taught me, i will not forget, but applying it into baji, its hard for me. i finding a way out of baji, a way of my own.... but all i can do is struggle.. i wanna chiong, wo bu xiang zai zhe yang zi bei kan bu qi.... but all i say is words no action. even me myself know that... i really hate this part of me...i feel like jus die one day and everything for me ends. but its jus lame to do it. LOL. hahah... actually didnt wanna blog le, but the feel came and ya, blog lo. hahah... right RQ? need mood de~ hahahha

don know wat on now... president also abit diao~ i wanna be up to de job. hope can. hahhaa AND WILLIA M BROTHER~ COME BACK MORE OFTEN LEI~

ahahhhahaha alwell... feeels so much better now... sayign stuff out works~

hahaha!

and XUE TIN. happy belated birthday! hope u enjoy... sadded couldn't stay. but its cause of class! and i wounld'nt wanna skip it. :D its training time ~ woots~ :D

i really wonder on the stuff i miss. hahaha

would i miss you all out one day?

idk..

hahah.

sleep now.

nites guys~

A great birthday, by great ppls...

2011-02-18T23:38:00.000+08:00

BIRTHDAY WAS GREAT!

Birthday was a blast! really got to thank all the ppl who made it so wonderful. every moment was filled with fun joy and laughter! thanks alot!

Wushu peeps! RQ, GX,HJ, WL, AND all others! thanks for the cake and tonning and chatting and crapping and laughters and shirt! :D haha! enjoyed ttm! :D

kena bluffed by GX into helping him choose present for fren. turns out its me! haha!

really stuned! :D but love the present! :D

Haig rd gang! thanks ck, jac, hc, qx, xt and ly for celebrating! HC BROTHER. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU BRO~ AAAHHA! ENJOY Bowling and stuff with u all, with extra guest rihanna with us! :D enjoyed ttm!

laughing session with HC and ppl sia!

couldn't have laugh more then this!

lastly.

a sudden SBS (SURPRISE BUTT ***) BY my sec school frens and kiara! :D

WAS once again stun! celebrated my birthday at this time!

really thanks for the effort! like the cake dam much!

get together real soon! :D

really love all my frens who have contributed and celebrated my birthday!

was really a different one this yr :D

and thanks to those who FB and Msg me :D

hehe!

xie xie da jia! :D

if time were to really stop, i hope that all of my this frens will stay by my side like this forever.

really, 18 yrs of my life, this are the great ppl who made it up for me.

23 min left, you are gonna forget me like this?

time for bed!

to those still partying! take extra care and enjoys! :D

nites ppl.

time...

2011-02-10T23:12:00.001+08:00

tick tick tick tick......
how much time do you need?....
tick tick tick tick....

i don know whether i want to know your answer now.
cause... it already seems clear to me.

tick tick tick tick...

can you just look at me?.....

2011-02-08T23:53:00.001+08:00

words from harry potter!
a short post while in bed, talking to PT.
ahahah she is a good fren, good listener...
well.. lifes seriously is becoming more dull each day.

mum and dad seems to be having problems with money.
i'm struggling with studies and exams.
no money and nothing. i don wanna add on to their burden.
i wanna work, but as?....

test tmr, phy on thurs.
am i ready?...
idk

taking a stand at my feelings for you.
i'm not gonna play the games anymore.
let see how it goes..
will it end like it always does?..
i wonder.

nights ppl.

nice song

2011-02-05T19:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BUNNY YEARS! :D

hahah! its been long since i last posted! CNY WOOTS!

This cny was, rather different! hahah~ enjoyed my self much, but things arent the same as before~

Gong gong sick, wai gong at hospital.

haixs, times really don wait.

just hope that they all get well... i hope..

first day was super tiring!

stayed over at gong gong hse and was like sitting there stare at tv and stone!

ate lots of good fooddd~! :D haha!

so gonna get fat again! wait, no, i mean fatter! cause i'm already fat.. HAHAHAH!

second day at wai po hse was quite touching. haha

lots of time spent with them. play and laugh alot with cousin whom i really haven kept in touch.

seems like just yesterday that we all use to go out together..

cny at shifu hse was uber cool

FALL ASLEEP CAN! HAHAH!

AND JESSEN , WEN LONG USE IPHONE TOOK PHOTOS OF ME. BEST LO..

but was fun and laughters at her hse.

went off at around 10.

to catch a person.. but was in return cancelled. and uncancelled again.

LOL.

seriously.

hahaha. was fun, she was pretty beautiful.

and thick arms? HAHAH! kiddinggg.. but ya.

walked her half way home. i really enjoyed.

that 30 min ?

Last nite was fun... it brough back memories.

but just memories..

i wont forget this new year, like how i wanted to forget abt you.

and lastly.

green tea

off to class~

CIAOS~ AND WRITE AGAIN SOON

Growing up.

2011-01-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

Hey people~ haha~ its been awhile since i last posted. busy busy busy ! now may seems like the only free time i have left? cause its gonna be CNY soon! angbao! :D yay! hahaha.. but sem test and common test too!!! sob sob! chiong hard, bang hard. just gonna die from this man...teeheee!

today's training was short and simple i guess. haixs. didnt do my routine to my expectation.. wonder if i will get bronze sia...:( not aimning for gold, but i do hope i have routines that can at least get A? like wise for those nyp and others that are grading too. all the best. :D
learnt alot today... really alot. some of the values that one should never forget... thanks coach.
and one last thing is never to leave yr wallet and phone alone... HAHAHAH! but ya. really learn from experience himself... spoken like a coach...

well... a short one. just gonna speak out. haha..
feeling stressed, but wushu never fails to help me destress at the same time. its really nice.
will move on. as always.
class is cool now, jus trying quite hard to keep up.. haha! study study study~! :D
when exams over, time to look for job, save up for the expenses to help cover for mum and dad...
hehe. miss playuing with yi long and zi yuan. shall go early on fri to play with them. :D but will sat pass smoothly? haha.. i wonder.

thats all ppl~ :D aaahaha! doubt i should use the word ppl . maybe there isnt any.
anyways time for bed.
nites..

"Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly."

2011-01-13T00:35:00.000+08:00

this few days. well, long bus rides and tiring school with training all the while. its kinda nice to keep myself occupied. but, i think too much when i'm not. todays training, sucks. i hate myself for being myself. although i can only be myself. LOL. but seriously. i don get the feel of doing all the moves, m legs are as if tied down to earth. and seeing the rest all moving on, all i can do is remain silent on how badly i am. all i can do is improve on. but, like what my fren said. when your passion drives you now where, is it time for you to reconsider your passion?

i don wanna give up wushu. its the only thing that keeps me closer to my sister, in some sense. but i like learning it. being able to do it, but now it seems like i cant. it sucks having to have coach keep saying the same thing, and i cant do any thing to it. thats why i want to train myself up first. still, even with all the training GY gave me, i am still no where near his standard. and to add on, it only gets stiffer for myself... i'm just a guy, who trains abit, and thats it. putting xiang tian xiang ting as my ultimate goal to chiong to them? what was i thinking.. it makes it feel so funny that i though of this once. having frens around me like rq, jt, wl, wil, jessen and others are good enough. i only want to be there at their stage. not mine.

i do hope i can keep up to the current situation...
cause, its already 2011.

thinking about ppl, i don have the mood to talk abt them, but long bus rides seriously help me to think. and it just gives me a little tiny space that i can let loose of my breath and once, find that life is not hectic, not troublesome and vexing. but the moment i step out of the bus, reality sets in. well. of course. wushu is fun with the wushu peeps. class is fun with ben, sarah, pc, pt and my. not to forget idris. haha. i do enjoy where i am now, what i'm doing. but i really do wan a break. a break from everything. maybe i should jus runaway form home. stay in the streets for a few days? tiring also. is there like really one place where i can feel like i'm lying on the bench with a perfect sun and weather? with the oceans wind blowing? the only one place i can think of is my bed, my dreams. enjoy whats happening in yr life now, smile at whats going wrong. and maybe, i wont find that life is so weird now.

i think thats all... for now.
write again when i'm free....
nights ppl

想说的话.

2011-01-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

有一天,很希望能用华语说完我想说的...
但那么一天会来吗?

有时觉得华语说的出我想说的.
又有时觉得华语不能.
突然想用华语说出我的话.... 好怪哦..

看见姐姐,很开心.
是一种难以形容的感觉.
能和那俩个小瓜玩. 真的真的很快乐.
似乎又回到了和姐在一起的时候...
但时间也这样,一点一滴的流失.....

在这用华语,我脑海里有好多话想说...
想一次过都说出口. 但却做不到.

看着下一站幸福, 我突然想起了你.. 你也会吃头发吗?
哈哈,的确. 我有时会无聊,有时会顽固,而有时还会装可爱..
但我就是我,没人能做我,而却只有我自己.
我不想想太多,不想做太多...只想现在这样就好.

有时,回想起,是爸妈把我带到这世界来的,
但我有做出回归他们的事吗?
我好象一直的在忽略他们..
有时,还真不懂我为何会在此时此刻这个地方..
人身真的好奥妙,是一种你自己去争取的一样东西.
而为父母,家人,理想,志愿以及自己而活.
不在活在影印里. 反而踏出第一步走出自己的另一个天堂...
因为我也相信这世界还没这么烂...

短短的一些字.却说了我花好久都说不完的话反映出来了..
时候不早了..
晚安...
就此等言.....

Night sky.

2011-01-06T23:34:00.000+08:00

夜, 是黑暗的,
是邪恶的代表,
是充满着恐怖,
只叫心神不宁.

what do you see?

a poem/short verse by my sister.

its very meaningful! and have been reading it for quite awhile. haha.

don wanna post all.scared she scold sia. haha!

well~ school these days like no school. cause of open hse! and performance today was fun! although i messed up..:<

haha! but the rest did great! loved the feeling of everyone of us working towards a same goal.

haha! same for sat! weee~~

saw quite a few very good looking girls. as in those who look super normal now, but if you look in another angle, its dam pretty.

hahaha! abit tico ar~ wheheheh!

don like how school manages us. its as if we are dog. we go to help and get nothing and no info in return. but nvm, don wanna talk abt it. sian only.

is this gonna be the last club crawl? :( ...

hiaxs. idk sia. i think i heard it. abit down but ya. got alot to learn. will continue to move on.

even when nothing is going my way...

still gotta go study and do hw~ wahahha! 12 then sleep! Wee!

wahahah.

我知道有点怪,

但姐,还真的蛮想你的.

或许是小时候习惯有你在我身边吧.

但每次听到ruiyan,ruiling说到你，

就想起了你．

你离开了那么久，我现在才终于说了出来，，

或许迟了一些吧．．．

姐，有想家吗？．．

一种会慢慢发效的感情?..

我真的不知道...

但我会看着办吧

晚安

Brand new days~

2011-01-06T00:26:00.000+08:00

IN A FEW HOURS TIME IS THE PERFORMANCES... DAM DAM DAM NERVOUS!!

DIE DIE!

feeling mixed.

today is tiring!

tmr will be even more tiring.

super short post.

post on fri or wat :)

nites ppl.

New stuffs.

2011-01-05T00:27:00.000+08:00

Today was good~ :)
although didnt went to visit grandma. but ya~ starting to get use to taking bus to school. the super long bus rides~ abit sian also. so early morning will sms. but no one sms... hais! sucks to the max! although like single bus rides. but with frens more fun you know~ hahah!

early morning reach school, KENA SCAM.
NYP SAY BRIEFING. IS ACTUALLY PACK GOODIE BAG. SCAM SHIT SIA.
SPENT LIKE 4 HOURS DOING IT?! SCAMMERS....ZZZZ
and all we get is mac. coupon.
CHICKEN BURGER OR DOUBLE CHEESE WITH COKE.
and they expect us to keep our mouth shut abt it.
lol.

then chiong go class. makan, listen, makan. haha! like picnic!
then do work with ben and kate perry then follow them take bus to jurong!
they guide me la of cus . hehe!
first time see ben ben and kate hse area. like so different. i machiam like foreigner. haha!
then slept thru 52 and reach jurong. train, run, train. still need improve. haixs...
noob still.
PERFORMANCE ON THURS AND SAT! ZZZZ! idk how sia! got the plans. later wushu class then say ba.
heheh.
then gy fetch me to toa payoh mrt. thanks~ reach home by switching thousands of buses! haha!
finally can nua~

hehe! alrights~ go drink milo and sleep!
nites ppl ~ :)

A new start

2011-01-03T23:04:00.002+08:00

TAEYEON~ :)
hahah! a very new year to begin with, with alot of changes. and firstly! taeyeon! weeeee!
very choi sia~ can stare at the picture on and on. haha!!
alot of new things i wish to do.
alot of stuff i wish to try.
and stuffs i wanna accomplish.
looking forward to how this yr goes.
cause its gonna impact my life.

1/3/2011
today.
was a dam shag day.
was a very normal day.
its jus a very very monday blues day.
early morning monday blues. slept on bus to school.
slept in class.
saw kate perry (pauline)
and blah blah blah.
worst thing. HOMEWORKS....
ZZZZ
how well can my first day get?!

1/2/2011
first training of the yr. well, was quite quiet when i reach. cause of some stuff.....
but training was alright. still gotta improve~ and after that.GROOM MY ROOM 3!
Pa, ma all chiong my room and now it looks different! haha! and i found wormies growing in my shelves! the wormies are like the best! they are FREAKING sick! but fascinating :)
*my room is still well, MESSY*

MY NEW ROOM :)

1/1/2011
spent my time with haig rd gang again~ :) helped out at RC. was quite shag. everyone is tired, aahahha! but ya lo~ :) fun fun fun! then i think i rot at home ? forget le. but 1/12011 was well spent~

31/12/2010
31 dec was spent with my besties of the besties. all the frens i once grew up with. didnt join them for singing due to $$. no $$ = no talk. hahaha! but joined them for eating ! BUFFET, 日本春(I know the chinese abit wrong) AT KLP!!! and the best THING there! GREEN TEA! wahahah! we ordered like super alot can?! aajahahha! and another most unforgetable one is ASPARAGUS BACON. BEST OF ALL. TRY NEXT TIME. :) WAHAHAHAH! At yr own risk! was fun to play dares and chat and crapped. and with jac sitting infront of me~ :) wahahah she now choi bu le wo! hehe! then walked all the way home and prepared for marathon. MOVIE MARATHON! had heart 2 heart talk with kc, although he didnt tell me much but ya ! :) fetched rita and waited for ck then movie liao! and was blah blah blah and i went to sleep and blah blah blah it was 1/1/2011 liao. :)

its not like this anymore....

thats all guys~
nites and ciaos~

Is this enough?

2010-12-26T16:39:00.000+08:00

Powered.

yes, this was wat i felt this morning.
with the wrath of my anger too. angry at why i cant do my moves correctly. i let it all out today.
and ya, i did do better. only to realise the drive for myself in wushu.
my mind was at a state of blank, and only words kept repeating and chanting. 加速...力度...进步...
and i like the feel. i feel flow lo. i can do cartwheel better now :) and improving others! to reach to a stage where by i can be with all my frens. will continue to keep with this motivation. learn 8 ji after the 2 sets of kickings. jt, st, and rq all no come. so abit lonely. shu yan also. haha. but nvm la. still quite enjoyed the whole morning.
gonna head over to euginn hse mhp3~ haha! but got bb with ck they all first~ shaggg~

shall write again soon!
byes bai~ :)

Weee, refreshed.

2010-12-23T12:38:00.000+08:00

SO MAJESTIC SIA THIS GUY. HE IS SO DAM FREAKING SEXY~

HAHAHA!

Yay its the start of hols! and GY is back! he even got me a gift! a clay la bi xiao xin :) haha! nice! wen long too! thanks guys! haha~ hols also tiring sia. cause everyday chiong game game game! haha! but ya~ only time to relax. gotta start doing project soon~ wahahaha then ya la. so now gonna start training again! hahah! improve!

i spent 12 bucks to buy a feeling, and thrown away mine.

so ya. i guess its settled as this ba.

and it seems better this way.

so ya~ short post~ hehe! nth much to say also~

looking forward to tmr and class later! haha :)

ciaos~

Satisfaction?...

2010-12-20T00:17:00.002+08:00

morning was great. afternoon was okay. nite was fun.

is that all?

its not their fault, its not my frens fault. its my fault. the way i acted yesterday and today is totally the same. its no diff from what was before. it just me being there being sick, ya, sick and moodless of everything. i just feel like trashing it out. what all my friends have done, their effort. was all clearly seen. but mine? none. i got no idea wat to say but ya. really, i don feel the existence in me anymore. only when i am with friends that i feel that i'm around. else, i'm a nobody.

am i really the one choosing ppl? or have i stood so low to think that i am the one being able to choose from? and not the another way round? satisfactory, how satisfy are you with your self? am i satisfied? huh? acting, just trying to look good, really. enough. whats the point of doing only when i want to show ppl? what for? i wanna be who i am, i really need to find myself. look deep down into my self.. and just to realise, how ugly i really am.

had a great up roar with valen and frens. hahah. tmr play, tue enjoy, wed family and wushu. thurs do work.

basically ya. project due dates coming up and stuff. so better get prepared. haha. yesterday was really fun with qishan, rita,xun fang, sybill, her cousins and frens, jac, huan yi, nadi ,LY, WJ, CK, KC, ZH, Chan, jones, darly,andrew and ya. the rest. some of the kids was really nice :) really enjoyed, but ya. my "nice" mood came and i was all there starring at whats happening. helping here and there. but just really no mood for the musics and stuff. but it was fun. i feel like me when i'm with them. and i hope it remains this way.

tonight, no more nites ba.

cause its just me and my blog.

so wirte again soonnn....

orh ya, and i forget to mention abt ideal GF. nvm~ next times~
ciaos~

a surprisee~

2010-12-17T02:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RUI YAN JIE!

today was a blast! finished studying manufacturing! wee! hope to be confident for tmr!

haha~ was so fun with eric,ruiqi, rui ling and rui yan jie. fun fun! wagagga~ they all bully me !! :( hahah! but nah~ its okie. jokes jokes! but really a wonderful birthday! and bailey! so cute! haha! love the way he cuddles and sleep on my lap while on the way to ecp just now! :) haha! gonna have alot of fun with they little girl! teehee!

pray hard tmr will be alright! off to beds and some last second readings!

thanks eric, rui ling and ruii qi for making this event a successful one!

:) spoke quite alot with RL and eric. like abit weird but ya, nice talking to them!

its actually quite a dream for everyone to get married.

hope to find..... :)

nites ppl~

XOXO~

nites G :)

Devil, angels.

2010-12-16T00:01:00.000+08:00

Dear dairy, today i'm a good boy.
hahaha! so fake~ LOL. but ya. short post.
looking forward to sat lo. hehe. but ya. after my test then say ba~
today like abit moodless. LOL.
but still, i good boy :)
cause i praised pauline :) HAHAH!

NITES PPL.
XOXO.
nites G.

Confirmation Dress.

2010-12-14T00:13:00.000+08:00

you in this confirmation dress.

WEE~ end of maths! although i gotta say there are bound to be tons of CARELESS mistakes and wrong answers. but ya, ended one paper. really didnt have the mood for maths. instead more on EPC. and today with ben and wen shu help, i really understand the whole thing better. 2 of the top students huh~ they are so dam smart. must suck more from them! haha! hope that the paper later would be manageable.

saw some photos back in sec life. it was so memorable. lol. all the fun times, sad times, happy times. all sort of colours filled in it. haha it was really wonderful. hehe. god gave us a piece of blank paper to doodle on it. its how colourful u wan it to be. cause you are the one colouring it. hahah~

after test~ its break! and the festive season! wweee ! so gonna enjoy it. but cannot forget abt the 2 assignments! ARGH! its so dam pain in the asss~ gotta complete it ASAP! but ya~

i have made problems got GY.

how?

u are busy, or maybe not. u jus choose not to talk to me.

idk wats up with u now

huh G.?

nites ppl.

XOXO

nites G.

Sorry...that i loved you.

2010-12-10T23:53:00.000+08:00

sorry that i loved you....

song introduced by JING TING :)
nice nice . haha

today physics was alright, athough quite alot unsure! haha. need to study more ar. and epc, another big headache... practise practise! today was quite tiring. but went over to CK place watch socceress's apprentice.
nice! and the song "secrets" by one republic! nice nice! haha. today my leg was better! although still abit pain.. hope it gets well soon! played basketball with them. got the urge to play again! haha. but ya~ manage my time then say ba.

quite alot happen. i don know whether to be the one who will take and put down? can i be that kind who can take and can drop one? like what difference does this makes it from the others? sometimes i just feel like i am really the one doing everything. but it doesnt means that everyone must reply to your feelings. so be it then?

i miss the secret of joy and learn the reality.

thats all for today then.
nites ppl.

Christmas.

2010-12-08T23:17:00.000+08:00

CHRISTMAS COMING! WEEEEEE!!

although its a busy yr. but looking forward to christmas.

there so much i wanna say, but i jus don have time!!!

i needa sleep, i needa study. i needa this i needa that.

ARH`~~~~

But hope to spend Christmas differently....

All I want for Christmas is YOU ♥

Nites ppl.

XOXO

nights G.

black or white

2010-12-08T07:56:00.000+08:00

time : 7.53am

woke up early to study phy. its this fri. hope can do well. hahaa

but ya, like now abit stressed.

cause sem test is next week!!! really quite worried. haha.

and wushu grading is coming! with my current standard. CANNOT AR!

hope to mantain sliver! hahaa~ ya. a short post for a very cold morning.

waiting for mum to come back, haven seen yi long and the other 2, and my sis for long.

wonder how they are... haha

alwell..

better prepare for school le.

don leave me stranded here please.

white... lies.

2010-12-07T23:47:00.002+08:00

this guy abit style seh

the colour best! hahaha!

really gonna be a short post.

i haven gotten ready for epc, and phy.

and its this fri and next tue, SO GOOD LUCK.

idk if can do well.

awell. jus chiong only.

gonna sleep and wake up study tmr. nites ppl

nites Gennie.

lol :)

Lies, and white hairs

No U Hang Up

2010-12-05T13:44:00.000+08:00

time: 1.38pm

a very nice morning to start, the weather was cooling and stuff.

the noon was bright and sunny, a very good day to go out on a sunday, especially with families.

wonder how will night look like today?

well, training was quite okay today, feels good but bit slacked.

chatted with JT quite alot. haha! X BURNER! WWEEEE!

was fun lo. hehe.

then went to eat with the whole gang. its been a long time since we were like this, haha :)

shifu pointed out some qiang routine stuff to me, yes, it was helpful. means i am still not good with it .

will continue to improve on it :)

meanwhile, sleeping time~

a song for you guys :)

No U Hang Up

enjoys~

wind, grant me the power to move on....

2010-12-05T01:03:00.000+08:00

Today was a long day, not a boring one though. did wat must be done, and move on to do wat should be completed. morning at cc was cool~ the peeps there was fun and stuff. haha. lunch was also awesome! hahah! went to fuhai helped and go for traiing. like still got alot need improve. but i will do my best :) haha! then came back to end the day with my haig road besties.

well, you left me breathless, as if there were no air.

cause its you thats so breathtaking.

breathless.

If our love was a fairytale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we’d say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It’d be so beautiful if that came true
You don’t even know how very special you are

Chorus

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I’m thankful for the life we’ve made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don’t even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You’re like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You’re something special
I only hope that I’ll one day deserve what you give me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless
Breathless

this song is nice.

i hope things stay as how it is now...

nties peeps.

nites G.

2010-12-04T01:57:00.000+08:00

today, i learnt the word cherish. the true meaning of cherish.

i saw my grandfather today.

he isnt really very well, he was struggling when i got there. with a pulse of 150 per min? was really shock to see that... he didnt take any food or medicine. there was little i can do. jus standing there hoping the nurses or my mum or aunt can do something abt it. after the shots nurse gave him, he finally settled.. although his breathing is still quite hard. and all i could do was to stand there with nothing i can do....

i hope you get well wai gong. get well again and we can all sit together and have steam boat as one whole family. get well soon and we can all celebrate festivals together, like always.

went off to meet tsefang, pei en and wei jie at somerset for dinner and movie.

was well fun :) put my mind off abt wai gong for awhile. and ochard seems to have brought me to another world, as if it was a place where ppl escape to. it was a feeling of freedom as i walk along the streets, shops and malls. along with them, we headed to eat and chat and crapped. haha~ its been awhile since i have been able to do that. i was definitely refreshin. ahaha :) watched HP7. Nice~ esp emma watson and ginny. :)

both of them was gorgeous! ahaha~ the movie was nice. hoping to catch the second part soon.

after movie when shopping with the gals~ then walk here and there like a busy bee. LOL.

hahaha but i enjoyed la. don know abt them haha! before departing saw a girl who was quite special. she had long hair, and eyes that smiles... was really a pretty girl. working at cotton on. :)

and ended off with a long chat with tsefang otw home.

i need to manage my time better. idk how! ZZZ!

gonna sleep liao.

nites ppl.

nites G. :)

2010-12-02T00:40:00.000+08:00

and we still choose to smile and cover up what we actually mean.....

2010-12-02T00:15:00.001+08:00

The missing piece..

today, black. pure black.

although frens did cheer me up, but its still. BLACK.

today isnt exactly the best day.

alot of stuff happened..

feels bad for xiao zhi, made he come to NYP for nothing.

haixs

and test today was alright.

think why i feel so negative is due to the lack of sleep ba.

and maybe someting else ba.

but well, went to school all blacked.

black black black.

ya.

tired and black.

but manage to talk to Tse Fang,

which is something i haven done in a long time.

i finally understand how she feels? perhaps?

idk.

but all i feel is.

i'm losing.

and at lost.

really losing alot.

........

....

nites ppl.

nites G?.... idonevenknowifyoucare.

and a little something to add in before i sleep.

haru haru

shortpost.

2010-11-30T12:36:00.001+08:00

Short post, very tired today. haha, typing in the dark lecture room. lol

typo alot seh. hahaah but ya, a little break from the pack and stressful class.

comskill, zzzz sian lo. next week hope can do better! will try come out with a speech ba. lol.

hahhaa... all well, live up to yr dreams, and believe in yrself ba. hahah.

abit random. heheh.

cya then. blog again tonight or wat.

XOXO

2010-11-30T00:00:00.000+08:00

jus done maths. today was well. suck.
wan hong no come school, didnt even tell me.zzz. gotta chiong one presentation all by myself.
and did it in like 25 mins. lol. super sucky one. should have kept to my original style. but i panic and changed alot of stuff. and i went out of point.zzzzz
abit fucked up lo.
came home straight as ben no meet, so zao. came to home area. RAIN....zzzz
haixs. thanks mummy for bringing umbrella lo...just hopes she tc while walkin on wet surfaces. she almost slipped and fall. haha. but she never. lol.. came home then slack chiong computer work. chat with tmm :)
very long no chat with her. she still dam zai in blogging and all sort of other internet stuff. teehee.. will always ask her. wahahha! sort of looking forward to christmas and stuff. hope i can rest...
wanna spend time out with them lo. ya....
this fri going out with do re me fa clique. haha :) very long no go out with them le. although idk wat will happen...heheh. *smirk* like how chuck bass does it! teehee!

well. today not much chat la.. didnt wanna bother.
cause its always me thats intruding.
forget reply jiu siau le.
got nothing to say abt it.
well, jus don sleep too late..

shall head to bed le..
nites peeps.
hope tmr will be better. haha
nites. G

2010-11-29T01:03:00.001+08:00

harro~ hehe!
rawr! LOL. hahaha.. not bad :)
today was rather typical? i would say. although morning wasnt really pleasant? cause of my weakness.. cause of how lousy i am. coaches have all been saying all the bad stuff, and i haven really changed, zzz. how?
i know i kick slow. i know i turn slow. hiaxs.

but ya, left early and came back home.slack and sleeped.
studied awhile when woke up and went to jac place. falling into k-pop stuff. haha
lol!
came home studied. till like now. 1.00 am. LOL. but slack like half of it? teehee...
but really abit down cause of wat happen to G.
she didnt tell me anything.. and i couldnt have asked. till i saw it on fb.
was despondent i would say. cause this shows how much i stand in her... which is.
little.
knew more abt it when she shared her stuff.and its not exactly her fault. cause, i'm de one intruding.
was nice to have sms her like we alway did...
hope it stays dis way.....
but ya, she fallen asleep as always while smsing. haha..
shall be sleeping too.

nites then.
nights G.
rawr.

2010-11-28T00:03:00.000+08:00

to me, you will always be beautiful.
hahas :)

this is really a quote not for me. but for my frens. haha. cause whenever i fail. its not innovative? LOL
but these times alot of stuff happening. like problems btw frens. family stuff. r/s stuff.
jus hope to have time listening and trying to help. but i cant.
really busy. but i don believe i cannot juggle all this at once. i wanna do it to prove it for myself.
i don wan to let my parents and sis down. so i will continue to press on!

shall go sleep le.
nites, nights G.
XOXO.

2010-11-25T23:42:00.004+08:00

COLD HEARTED....

2010-11-25T22:38:00.000+08:00

EVERYDAYS DIFFERENT. HAHAH..
Feels good each day. and tiring but don believe i cant go thru all this.
smiles!
:)

this is wat i do most when sleeping. hehe :)
like the design :)
haha. today was so so.. lol.
feels determined abt some and worrying about others.
how are all my frens doing?
idk. haha.. its been so long since i contacted them..
a short post. and i think i intend to keep it this way.

XOXO.
nites. nights G.

2010-11-25T01:30:00.000+08:00

well. guys and girls

thats what makes us different.

night, nite G.

2010-11-23T00:11:00.000+08:00

well well. what do you know... you are back.

and i'have changed.

really missed you G.
was really a surprise..
still it was nice.

but is it the same ?.....

2010-11-21T16:54:00.001+08:00

if i could, then i would have gone to where you have gone.

its been days. and no news yet...
no telling when you are back. maybe, maybe i just needs to have abit more of the attitude that i want in me.

Bye then, G.

XOXO.
sign.

frens from before till now.

2010-11-18T02:12:00.000+08:00

Knows i should be studying now. but just felt like voicing out....

for this 17 yrs, alot of ppl came in to my life. alot fo frens and so on. but one by one we all start to part.

feels like frens are really amazing huh?
all the talks, joy, laughter, sadness, and wat ever..we all use to have. i jus hope i don forget it bit by bit. hahah
miss hanging out with my broadrick clique. aahahaha
miss staying over at their hse and play all nite.
its been so long..
hiaxs.
changing.

miss spending time with haig rd ppl.
spending new yr with TMM and gang
playing majong.
basketball.
floorball aka men chui
haha... memories

miss my pri school mates. how are they?
su hui? si chun? yuhao? zhong cheng? daniel?
alot of them. and really all spliting.
although i am happy that still got ppl like TX and ZJ with me. haha! 7 yrs of frenship le! goona be 8 very soon!
hahaha but the rest?.....

sitting infront of my books and studying. my thoughs do drift away..
XOXO...

fun day. bad ending.

2010-11-17T02:38:00.000+08:00

ITS BEEN SO LONG....

Had a really heart to heart talk with ck and TMM. Haven really talk to them for awhile. hahah. was good to talk to them. jus, i am tired...HAHAHA. and me and TMM abit lose our syn liao! haixs! need to take time out to PATCH back! heheheh! yups! thats wat i will do! hehehe! alot of stuff on my head. way too much...HIAXX...

need a break. but cant.

today wushu at yuhua was so good! got the feel to keep doing xun zi! hahaha! kept doing kept doing. GY, also helped abit. but i too sweaty. he don like. REALLY DON LIKE! hhahaha! feel abit bad, cause like make him so uncomfortable. hahaha~ then he also got keep motivate me. although effect not really there, wat i can see is less talk more action. he wans me to do more. and ya, i will do. training bit by bit, i really wish to accomplish wat is set for me, and do it better! every one seems to have their own specialized style now! its so cooll... hahha! really amazed with RQ and Steven. with their dam nice routine..HAHAH! hope to see it in action!

here comes the.. HIAS... wat i shouldnt have done.
was rude to jun yuan... haixs :< like really rude back to her sia.. was wanting to joke, but all it came out was anger.. idk why.. haixs. now like make her feel bad. :( idk la...really shouldnt have bothered her. make things worse only.. how am i gonna clear it up?
i know small stuff. but as it pile up it gets big.. idw to like have this unhappiness btw wushu frens sia. esp when its some one who is rather a good fren to me :<
reallly sorry jun yuan. :(

hiaxs.
today abit good and bad. like life is always like this.
hais. BUT LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE!
hahhaha
MOTIVATING. :)
NTIES PPL.
XOXO :)

LONG TIME SINCE I AM BACK....

2010-11-15T23:12:00.003+08:00

She left without a goodbye.....

YAWNS! TMR PRESENTATION! OMG OMG! haven prepare speech!
HAHHAHA! is abit high now. and tired
Just had a really wonderful night with wushu frensss! to celebrate both ERIC birthday~
WAS FUN! hahha! but tmr need run more. CAUSE EAT TOO MUCH. wahahahha!
but its cool..
hahah.
really short post. not really in the mood for long ones these days.
hope to find time to go look for tini ginn wil chris some day..
its jus so much on my mind now..
jus so much.
alright! back to work.
seeya guys soon...

is this just it? G.

2010-10-30T23:40:00.000+08:00

Ivp over~ today was a really good day. i see the difference in both power and level. its really time for me to reflect, have i been putting in my 100%? i don think so. not putting in the best in wushu seems to be a very major problem. cause u don improve fast. i don wanna speak much about this.

i wanna do it. i wanna prove to myself that in 3 yrs, i can get a medal back.

was rather nervous as i reach the place. but got better after trying out the carpets.
then np students came. freaking alot student. haha. then soon it was my turn lo. never even do one full routine go liao. LOL. but still manage to fight all the way. gong ma bu still high. xu bu also. hahah. power still not enough. so every thing is still not up to standard. fight on. one down, one more to go. i hope to master my da dao and bring it on next yr or wat. hope i can do it. gonna make extra effort to iimprove. i don wanna be look down again, don wanna kena gan or say cause of my lazyness. i wanna change. change not for anyone, but for myself. i really hope that i still got hope. still can change. cause i feel like i don.

today my com, u also not sms?
u don know ba. but nvm.. lol
like i said. u were quite the one that is hard to forget.
i guess things should just be left the way it is..G.

2010-10-28T01:16:00.001+08:00

Seems like things went back to square one.....G.

2010-10-26T23:31:00.001+08:00

G. cheer for me for my competitions can?........

iloveyou.

2010-10-25T00:30:00.001+08:00

Its jus different?
idk why.. but i feel different.
i like you for who u are.
u don reply msgs fast.
u reply ":(" when u know i am not happy.
u cheer me on as i how i cheer u on.
u panic and start to go crazy like a little small girl who can't find your fav hairclip.
u must be really outstanding when u perform dance or competiting for yr bowling.
u are filled with the charisma and the beautiful elegance i don see in others.
u are the kiddish girl i always liked.
u are the only girl that msgs me early in the morning and woke me up from my sleep.
u listen to me crap and talk cock..
u are smart, beautiful, cute whatever good adjective u can think of...
u are who u are, in my eyes...

its jus how far u took my heart.
but now its whether i can step into your world....

and i really do hope to see u perform or compete someday...
as much as i hope to see u there for me for my wushu competitions....

sleep well... and stay cheerful with the bright warm smile of yrs everyday...

XOXO...
5 more days....its down to action now.

2010-10-23T01:55:00.000+08:00

THE FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL OVER!~ WOOTS!
its a very good week! all my chers are not bad wo. lots of super hyper ones... HAHHA!
today was fun! ton at chalet then continue to school seh~ freaking tired. slept thru a 2 hr lecture sia..XP .
thank god his stuff is not say impt. hahah! but first week passed. means its starting soon...HIAXS....
bad minton was fun with the class! wacked pt's bf racket! GG! hahha! and dropped tw ip4! OMG lo today...
zzz but ya... sprained my back... dam pain

as i move on, as i grow. i find that alot of my frens are leaving. not like who we are like before...
as if its destined.
its our own life. its how we juggle it.
and i seems to be dropping all the balls that i am juggling......
its all gonna be like this for now.
and i don like it.
will i choose to drop it?..
its really still a mystery to me.

things are getting better with her.
but it just seems as if....
we are frens.

XOXO

2010-10-09T23:14:00.003+08:00

123 POST.

hahah! the number 123 post! cool~ heheh!
training as HELL like that this few weeks. began feeling tired everyday.
AND SCHOOLS STARTING!!! MUST CHIONG! 3.6! HERE I COME!!

HAHAH! ya! must chiong! hope can sia.
hehhe

tmr HW sure diee one. freaking tired now..
hiaxs.!

but PERSEVERE!

即使我喜欢你,那根本改不了我追不到你的事实...catch that gennie....

2010-10-01T19:17:00.002+08:00

SEEMS LIKE I JUST DON UNDERSTAND RITE?

your call, my love...

2010-09-24T23:29:00.000+08:00

what i can hold is what i can give, but what my hearts give, its beyond imagination..

drown in music...blinded by love.. haha..
its been so long since i last posted.
now at shi fu hse. using sis lappy~ a rather old one/ hehe
but ya.. preparing for class tmr..
tired/
very tired/
jus ate sakae with pei en , tf and wei jie. was fun.
although its jus a short meet out.
haha
then sqeezed like sadins to go to farrer park mrt.. hate the mrt esp at that time.
LOL
its been then since she replied..
was it something i said?
idk.
idk wat to reply
idk wat to say...
so...
:(

idk la.
i know wat to do and planning for my future now.
but not for you.
i jus don know wat to do for you...
yawns...

2010-09-16T00:24:00.000+08:00

When we first met i was totally no there. i was else where...

then as i got to know you. feelings came...

but then. you were young. i think about it all the time...

i gave up. i wasn't prepared...

after a long time...

i meet you once again in a coincidental outing.

you grew.

you were totally a new person.

and you were attached too.

....

...

i wasn't myself that nite.

i notice you too much.

i looked at you too much.

its jus not me there anymore...

then it was over.

but my feelings still lingers..

the feelings i once had for u..

its backed now.

will you follow me down the road and all the way.

its wat i will be waiting to ask.

its jus not me this few days.

totally not me at all.

its like i changed.

i changed to something i don even know for myself.

i am not jiayi anymore..

my problems.

are kept only to myself for now..

2010-09-13T23:42:00.001+08:00

Well. i taken the steps and ya. i push more. so?
does it works now?...

dad and i arent getting along quite well. but still. i am gonna stand.

thats all. its jus not me anymore.

nites...
..

2010-09-05T00:46:00.000+08:00

AGAIN. is this wat i really am? huh? is it? is life gonna go this way for me? .......

there is really no place for me to whine and make a fuss of. really.
nothing seems to be able to change. i wan to change. change to one person who is not me. one who is the opp of me. one who holds a better life value. i know who i am. wat i do. but not the way its gonna affect anyting. i feel like ... nothing. really. nothing at all. seems like i cant feel the part thats in me. watever i do. it jus" like that lo". not the amazing wow or not bad good job. but jus that. i know, its not abt wanting to stand out. but it jus feels like wat i do is meaning less.

i don feel like studying.
i don feel like wushu.
i don feel like hanging out.
i don feel like talking.
i jus don feel like living in this environment.

its jus the routine same all over. nothing changes. no matter wat i do.
so sorry qi shan. i knwo u have been calling me to attend this and that. but i have been turning it down. cause i cannot go or wushu. but so sorry. i know its hard on you and ya. its troublesome to call me go and all that. really appreciated that u took the time to tell me and that. but i jus seems to be turnning it down... so sorry.
mabe i shld quit youth grp. i shld not join and get the stuff for wat i am doing now. which is nothing.

like i said. wat i do is nothing. it doesnt affect anything.
well maybe some do, like makink the wrong decision and affecting everyone in the whole dam world.

ya. may it did.
idk.. but it jus seems this way now.......

Ever since that day.

2010-08-28T16:45:00.001+08:00

Its been awhile since i last updated. haha. busy busy~ ever since yog ended. life seems to have returned to the way it shld haven been. and things are piling up as always.. some times feel that i am really not doing a good job. haixs.. hope to improve more. hope to excell.

i have though already. if i cannot study well. at least get 2.9++. if not then teach as coach and lead a normal life. wanna be able to take care of my parents. been hanging quite some time with sis and shi fu family. :) get to see long long, zi xuan and jun jie more often now. learnt alot over there. shifu's maggie noodle was the best:) how i wish i could have learnt from him and cook it myself. carpet came today and ya. we sweat hell lot to carry it. but all is "meng" nan from martial hse. haha! so still okay la! went over to shifu place to take towel. only to realize that i didnt take due to playing with Jun Jie... hahah! finally gotten my martial hse shirt! yay! hahah~ and shifu givin those who helped out a yifong shoe wo! hahha... but really tired today lo... hiaxs...

this coming sem test. hope i don do badly ba.. really feel that no future in my studies lei... hope to be able to put in more hard work la.. training at nyp was good la. really to the core now. tmr hope i don die again at hong wen ba... hehe! alrights... i going have a nap and start studying le.

nites..
post again soon ...

HIAXS...

2010-08-19T01:08:00.000+08:00

today was a bad day.
yesterday was a bad day.

i feel that i am incapable of dealing with this stuff. its like i am dam lousy at it.... hiaxs. and i used bad language during class.. zzz la! sort of really regretted it... haixs.. :(

and today was dam bad. i feel that i am like becoming more and more like shit. my standard is like dam bad now. and not improving at all again. hiaxs. feel dam useless and down now. seriously don know wat to do. don think i can make it.. hiaxs.. i jus wish to improve, but it jus don seems to be improving... :(

i am stuck in my life now.

2010-08-12T01:10:00.001+08:00

yawns~ CR5 jus ended. with everything. now is preparation of the last cr. hahaa! was quite diff with alot of ppl lo. but wat happen tonight wasnt wat it seems like lo.. well... things didnt go as wat i hope it did. maybe its jus me being too full of myself. well anyways. thaanks guys for helping.LOL. seems more like havin fun! hahaha! esp gy~ wahahha! but ya. its a first time :) hahah! tmr ton at tini hse with ginn and wil. hope that my mood is well.

seems like the storm is over and all is left is peace..

rest soon..
good night ppl.

2010-08-10T12:08:00.001+08:00

FREAKING HELL OF A FUN THIS WEEK END!
1) TONING AT WIL AND VALEN HSE
2) KITE FLYING!
3) WUSHAN PARTY!

it was a hell of a fun! seriously enjoyed every bit of it, haha! :)
well, the details no need say le la. its all pure fun, with yi long and zi xuan` wahaha! more fun! then at wushan hse, although i youngest and don really know them all, but stil enjoyed! :) haha! fun fun! ton at valen and wil hse ar~ shiok ar! :) played like siao! :)

hehe! preparing for yuhua later. shall pay a visit to my grand parents later :)

its still like this. idk wat to do, wat to say/ cause watever i do, its jus annoyance to you.......
how i wished i could have known you more.
maybe thats how u like it...
maybe i am jus too fat for you to even befriend...
maybe this is how it ends...
maybe.......

it ended.

2010-08-03T20:13:00.000+08:00

looking at this. this is hows its gonna end..
i am jus too... idk wat to say...
its like moving either ways wont work.
idk la.

if thats the way you wanna end it.
so be it.
but i wont give up without waiting.

not this time....

...........

2010-08-03T01:01:00.002+08:00

no one will understand....

2010-07-31T02:24:00.000+08:00

勇往直前面对难关绝不退缩....

你的这句话, 我会牢记在心里...

jus give it a try, cause chance only jus by pass this once....

Coach.教练.

2010-07-28T23:58:00.005+08:00

a dare between me and rui qi.

教练.

this phrase has been in me since i first started wushu during sec 2. there were times when this phrase, haunted me during my sleep. especially when grading is round the corner. but, at the same time, i have learnt from the people whom i call 教练. they are the one that helped me so far out. they are the ones who always pushes us and motivate us.

having thoughs of giving up in wushu was frequently in my mind when i was in sec3. it jus seems so hard to do it. all the kicks, the jumping. its jus so hard. and for a guy like my size, its definitely no easy.. i didnt had much determination. but 教练 came in. and he talked me out of my worries and so on. then i realised... a 教练 words can sink in so much into someone.. and it affects how the person thinks and so on.

so then move on to sec4 and that time... things started to seem better now. with a few 教练 words in my head.. i jus continue wushu on and on. every sat. until after olevel then i went to hong wen to learn again. and coaches there was very nice to me. shifu even said to come out and train more.. haha! then as my choice was made then i went over to nyp to have extra lessons first. at first abit worried. cause heard alot of "NEWS" abt nyp wushu. all of its tough training...then i was like thinking die liao die liao.. yes la. did die there alot of times le la. haha! but the 2 教练, both also eric , are to say by far the most good and enjoyable coaches i have met. in terms of teaching and all. i think its quite fun and nice and TIRING during their traning. not sayin other coaches are bad, but diff coaches diff teaching style.

Gy Coach is firm and strict and dam FUNNY.. this is how we all have improved in terms of joking skills too! i had lots of fun and tiredness under his training, or should i say his HELL training!!? hahaa! but he is one of the funniest and coolest coach ! every time see him do his moves... all dam nice one.. like very little flaws or so de.. and the motivation he gives are really very good.. :) his words did leave a impact in me lo...so i hope to learn more from him and to continue to improve under him.

eric coach is the friendliest and nicest..although i didnt get to speak with him much, his way of teaching is really really nice. he often crack jokes and so on to make the training seem so much easier. hahaha! really nothing much to say abt him, as i seldom see him. but he is also another good coach that did help me in my wushu...

so ya... not only from coach do i learn from. even students! hahaa! but i didnt regret choosing wushu lo. didnt regret coming to join nyp wushu. and it turn out to have alot of impact on me. all the new frens i made. all the new stuff i learnt, it was all good la... :) hhahaha~
i thank you all for moulding into who i am today. yr values taught will not be forgotten...hehe! to all the coaches out there~

will continue to learn and pursue for a higher standard of my wushu ba... hope to be able to reach to where all everyone is standing at right now.

DA DAO~ :) WAHAHAHA!

another new week.

2010-07-26T00:05:00.000+08:00

jus got back from project with ben. it was fun and ya. got to know alot more abt ben.. not thinking of the girl so much le.. see tmr how ba. if going then 背水一战 ba! wahaha! i am shy to admit la. so ya... gonna make a break thru!!! hmm...whether how it would be like tmr...

but then hor. alot of work lei. tmr morning need wake up early to do..YAWNS! do chem and bio mat tmr! chiong chiong! :) tmr morning is a test of endurance~ :) haha! and hope can last lo.. then go yog or school? idk!! see how tmr ba.. really wish to see that girl again...: (

haixs haixs.... love sick! very very dislike this kind of feeling.. but always wanted someone who can be there for me.. : ( past experience is like ... bad.. dam bad... really admire those who last long.

haha! well! enough abt this kind of stuff le ba~
time for beds and snores~ :D
nites.

你就这样擦身而过...........

2010-07-25T00:30:00.000+08:00

你就这样擦身而过...........

you were infront of me this whole time. you stood there as if nothing is happening. and all i could is to hold on to my feelings before saying out to you... without the courage to approach you.. i don know how to make the move. as if i was bounded to the ground and jus silently see you hoop off.. i have really got nothing to do. my bros are not with me. all i got to do is be more like a man. but i am scared. i dare to do it. but i'm scared.. not scared of the embrassement. but scared of yr reaction...

the times when we exchanged glances. it was like nice... but another though came to me. were you thinking why there is this weird guy was looking at you? haha.. figures... thats of cousre wat you will think.. then wat will it be like if i had approached you?.... only remembering how well you looked when did yr moves.. yr smile.. yr funny shirks and acts... and all of yr everything.. the only thing is the we exchanged glances.. that moment.. your eyes were jus so diff... the short 3 min with u today on stage.. i didnt even have the chance to look at you.... haha all i can say is you are a sweet and cheerful girl ba. nothing else..

well...so be it ba.. i don think anything will come out from this ba..

but.............

i jus don wanna regret not knowing you...

2010-07-20T01:23:00.001+08:00

gonna be sick and done for...die le.

2010-07-18T22:57:00.000+08:00

"难道你连坚持一下都不行吗!?".....

"回家记得冲烧水..."....

i know that its not pain... but i jus cant endure it. i feel dam noob or wat. gy is trying to help me. but all i can is give up easily . not only do i think that gy is abt to give up on me, i also think that i am really very lousy...haixs..don know wat to do.. i am really wanting to become stronger. become better. when i see zoey doing pt..how i wish i can be as hard working as her. seems like i am really not good for anything..jus tryin to stay focus and positive... late for class today, couldn't wake up.. sort of had a tift with mum. jus rushed everything and cabbed down to hw. i don wanna miss trainings...but things wasn't good there lo.. sort of emo when class ended.. when i wore my specs. time to really change a spec. abit exp though.. goiing for plastics frames now lo.. if not tmr go abit earlier to CCK to see specs.. haixs..

tmr got cp test, and bio mat test in this week.. haven study. gonna study later lo... moodless and dull now..

this two lines arent gonna go out of head any sooner...

yesterday (sat)

woke up jus in time to bath and head down to the living room at shi fu hse to wait for them. and ry jie jie came down~ and she made me milo! it was sweet and nice! :D waaaha! love it~ when sis got married.. i seemed to have gotten myself 2 nice and caring sister. RY and RL. haha.. seems jus like when jie was back home with us... but now i am with them.. haha. then when abt to leave, MAJOR FLOOD. lol! haha! even shi fu car the car plate got swipe off!! wahahah! funny~ went to greeridge latter lo. i took the younger class. troublesome kids. some didnt wan to do it properly. some not interested.. haha! but overall it was good.. fun and headed down to yog with jessen and ant~ me and jessen then went to parco to walk walk. came to this jap stall and went in to see see look look. at the end bought this sweet strawberry ice cream and the person attended to me was funny. she input the wrong amount and shirk~ was so funny. and she look rather pretty and cute.

was eating my ice cream and eyeing her here and there... wahaha! details in yog will not be give ba. its jus fun and laughter with wushu frens :D wahhaha! looking forward to more. XP .

gotta study now. byes~

2010-07-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

我完全不了解你....

HAPPY but emoitonal day...

2010-07-11T00:02:00.005+08:00

first time using green.. well its fun today! really! early in the morning 6 olcock. jiayi and his wushu fren go for a walk. walk till jurong do tai ji.. HAHA! fun! with hao jun, wu shan, shi ping, dato and jacky they all. i cant say its boring. only the fact that its freakin slow when it started!! haha! was like.."wow. time seems to have slowed down alot! " ya...did it like 8 times? or more lo.. near 13 times..WAKAKA!! haha~ quite into the africa song~ so ya:D then after the 13 stlye came 24. STUN. everyone stun..HAHA! like wat hao jun say.. MONKEY SEE MONKEY DO! : Dteehee! then finish then eat food then yi fong~!
:D

came to yi fing wuth ant and wushan~ fun chatting~ crapping~ helping wushan choose shoes~ too bad shes going back soon... :< haa! but will see her again soon! :D she got a very funny laughter! : D is very friendlY! hehe! thats why talking to her was fun~ then sis came.. and wushan didnt know we are silblings! :D WAHAHA~ ! hehe! then wen long also come! more talking!:D hehe! chating abt bei jing trip...really hope to go.. but is with frens and all... but poly like cannot sia...:< haiz... then rui qi make zi xuan cry! haha! funy! and the two of them pop down to yi fong with shi fu shi mu~ :D hehe! had fun feeding yi long! but gotta chiong down to fu hai with rui qi.. nww officially helping out le lo.. maybe? idk! hahaa!! i am blur~ :D

at fu hai was fun. rq is like strict la! but the kids wont listen! but teaching kids is like a another way of learning.. i learn that not all kids take it hard... neither do they take it soft... hm...teaching has really grown into a part of me~ :D haha! hope to try more! :D and thanks rui qi for the bubble tea.. ages since i drank it.. cause is more exp now... WAKAKA~ :D next time treat back:D

then at ubi.. was dam tired.. and no mood.. cause i don see my self improving.. but thanks to jeremy words.. i am more motivated now.. more positve.. i will strive to be better.. and da dao... HERE I COME!

tired. leg pain..strain abit...
:< then rq also sickk...get well ba~ ~

i gonna sleep le la..see if tmr wan go wushu not.. really tired... ttm...
nites peep peep popo~ :D

and i lasted 38 sec... gonna chiong moree! :D
ma bu~!

u helped...

2010-07-09T22:41:00.001+08:00

today was fun :D haha! went out with pc, sarah and ben ben! too bad pt no come. will be funnier! haa!~ didnt manage to catch the 2.00 show. watch at 3.30. ate my SUBway with them and crapped like shit . lol...

if u wan show me attitude go ahead. cause its not my face u are losing. its yrs.
if u wan to challenge me by all means. but u cry not blame me. is u started it.
wan kp then go full. don everyday like this come di siao me.

forget abt that..
ya, the movie was okay. eclipse lo. team jacob like a mob of wolfs.
team cullen like X MEN. don u find that edward abit like wolfverine? haha! then his dad like cycplones~
LOL
then the other vamp like fantastic 4
one girl 3 guys LOL.
haha! but was nice. alot of smooching alot of don go here don go there.
but ya~ hehe! then went home and play...
so thats all lo..
my results.. abit will die lo.
:< alot of B... think no A sia.. die die...:<

hope for the better.. i tmr 5 need wake sia. i sleep first le.
nites~ :D

hehe!

2010-07-05T00:46:00.001+08:00

i am feeling all this all over again.

save yrself.
if not, jus accept the darkness within....

nightstalker.

2010-07-03T23:47:00.003+08:00

坦白说... 我没忘了那件事...

也没忘了你...

我似忽... 仍然还对你有那一丝丝的挂念....

天上的星星, 你看了吗?

.......

你的回答...
我听到了....
就让我着样子吧...

number #100.

2010-07-02T23:17:00.001+08:00

this is my 100 post. its like so long from my first one. all the different thing that i posted. all the stuff that had passed. its all memories now..

still remebered my first blog.
Friendship rays.
it was for my frens.
my true frens...
now, i am left with nothing but vain.
all my frens are now where to be seen.
its as if i have taken three steps ahead and dissapeared into the crowd.
why? why is this happening?
idk.
is it me? am i the cause of it? am i the one that is making all of this happening? AM I?
idk.
idk the answer my self either.
its just so cold all of a sudden
with no brothers there for u at all?
with no sisters to chat with?

i am like being stuck at something..
i am like sqeezing in to fit in?
idk how to be natural anymore.
why is there so much idk in my life now?
with this little site that i pour my feelings out to.
idk wat else to do..
ruii qi seems to dislike talking to me...
some others seems to see me as an extra?
i don like this feeling
i don like it at all...
is this the realtiy that ppl face everyday?
i don tihnk so
if this is it, then why are they still smiling and i am not? why?
it fits so nicely.
listening to my sis laptops song
avril lavigne
together.
it has never been together anymore.
since i seperated from them.
友情,
伙伴.
its jus different when u are alone and in a quiet environment.
u take time to think and retrace back.
haha :D

jus found out i need to wake at 5.
so ya.
i will turn in early i guess.
well, like i said this is jus one place i pour my feelings out.

nites people.
if there is any.....

2010-06-26T22:55:00.002+08:00

She's so high above me~

JIRO WANG - 在水一方

currently in love with this two songs..
its so meaningful.. haha...
thanks to jessen tan ruii qi of making my day such a wonderful one :D
its dam funny today... its been so long since i have been so happy and laughing.
really needed this at this time :D
test is on monday.. or well, its time to revise again and again..
haha~ hope can get good grades~! :D
hehe...
today was tiring. thanks to all the laughin. haha!!
no la, cause yog and wushu .. so dam tired at night.
but manage to fired up at the last part.
THE AWAKENING.
haha!!! and i did a miserable 28 secs for my 马步.
ahaha! chiong for the best~ woots! :D

well this is a short post. just waiting to post~

hehe!
off to rest and then its BED TIME!
NITES PEEP~!

2010-06-25T01:32:00.000+08:00

又这样过了一天...

加宜...
醒醒吧....

我好想一直睡下去...

2010-06-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

多么希望时间能慢下来.... 不在走的那么快...
每一天,都不知要做什么... 就着样过着每一天...
读书....没心情...
玩...又很无聊...
武术也不能每一天....
我真的不知道了...

你知道当我看着爱情戏时,是多么的难过吗?
着只是让我想起爱情的浪漫...
能和一个你会保护的对象.
一个能陪你走下你人身的一个对象..
一个你会永远爱着的一个对象.

但爱情与读书...
你能安排的好吗?

只希望你会出现...
望着天上闪耀的心心....

2010-06-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

17 年的教养,一直的迁就, 老爸. 父亲节快乐...儿子不孝, 今年没和你过父亲节.

i don feel like saying much le...
i thiink its just tme to rest and move on le...
i am really tired le..
listening to music.
in this quiet room of mine.
looking at the screen.
and pouring everything out.
its almost impossible to find others now.
no point le.
like i said.
easy out going = alone soloist?
hee.... heee...
down.
downnnnn
downnnnnnnnn...
tmr yog.
i don feel like studying.
tue yog.
i don feel like going.
wed wushu.
i feel like studying..
i am really tired le.

lights out le.

2010-06-12T23:20:00.000+08:00

TODAY WAS TOTAALLLYY AWESOME!!! :D HAHAHA!!!

happy!
love today man! hello peoples~ :D today was dam fun sia! last two paper for the week! was like dam hyper can! and i haven really posted much cause of my sickness. throat infection plus cough with flu and fever! how hard could it had been!? VERY! haha! but nevertheless, its over!

today when to Manhanttan fish market eat! DAM NICE! we all tata sauce siao haha!! then pauline and ben showed me the STONE age way of eating fish and chips! haha! dam fierce sia! both use hand! heheh!! was dam funny la! but cannot say out. later all laugh ar! :D hahaha!!! but was dam fun! lookin forward to going out with them again lo! :D first time sia! wa then the fish and chio dam alot ! but still can finish~ TEEHHEEE! Unlike someone who cant! aiya prove to me in your buffet la~ hahaha!!!

then when to take mrt with pauline to marymount. then i realise how am i gonna go suntec sia! from circle line.don know la, then take all the way. then till promeade then was like, ! can go suntec! chiong out and went over to meet ginn and wilson and valen~ :D was fun! all the chio buS in the pc fair give me FLYER! :D dam hot sia one of them! another was dam pretty! i stun when she turn to us sia!! :D

SHE IS HOT! SHE IS CHIO SHE IS EVERRYTHING! she was actually like a perfect girl! :D was happy... but if u remove the make up? wat if her words are all vulgarities? EEWWW~ haha! then contiune to move on and search! then saw pauline chan's iphone cover. 3 FOR 10 BUCKS! but then...ppl all crowd there! stuck! eerrnn. help help! no one listens. PUSH AR!!!! then finally got out~ : Dhaha! then go makan BK~ :D NICE NICE! then L4D MAN! :D we own~! me ginn wilson valen! its so nice to have like one whole bunch of guys going out again together :D BROTHERS FTW! :D haha! then me aginn wilson combo! nice nice! boomer puke!(GINN) HORDE INCOMING! HUNTER POUNCE!(ME) then kill one. then the rest three kena from horde wilson adds in with a SPITTER! :D FINALE~ :D woots sia! :D then wil and ginn walk me hoe and home sweet home then~ :D

tired! now just back from wushu~ :D today yog was hot! but there is progess~ :D tee hee! now is bed times and tmr wushu! :D and hopes jeremy gets well soon!
its now....
chao outside motherfucker! (PETER CHAO~ )

(posting slow. i post on FB ba~ )

nites peeps!
signing out~ :D

2010-05-25T00:04:00.000+08:00

HEY GUYS! .... ern *crow fly pass* wa? no body one sia!? HAHA! no la, my personal 天下!!

haha! well, its been long since i last posted! all is fine. EXCEPT THE FACT THAT TESTES ARE BOMBING DOWN ON MY PARADISE!! HAHA!!! ya la, classes here and there. managing well for maths and bio mechanics, followed by bio materials and computer programming. LASTLY IS INORGANIC CHEM!! die sia!! HAIXS. so ya la. tis is how life is in poly. rather hectic though.

regards to wushu, improving like abit here and ther lo:D my gong bu can each 90degrees le! woots woots! hehe!! happy! learning da dao now. feeling of giving up sia.. haixs. shi fu got push so still need move on. not for them but for myself..

haixs.. so many things going on. made alot of new frens and that. test coming in. going out to teaching. yog, alot of stuff la! haha! but not compared to others.... but ya.. i got no mood now..

haixs..
HAIXS...
jus sigh...
where are you? ....

2010-05-18T22:36:00.002+08:00

sometimes, friends is the furthest step that i can take to move to you.

2010-05-16T23:30:00.000+08:00

i think i injured my lungs during todays training. abit hard to breath now. haha! but nvm, hope it heals fast. BUT TRAINING IS STILL NOT GOOD. some parts are okay. but the rest.... hiaxs. got nothing to say. but ya. just keep moving. hehe! today watched ipman2 with mum and dad. its been long since i last spent time with my parents. with my mum its more often. but not my dad. just seems that way~ but still love the both of them. :D

jealous jealous sia!
but cannot jealous! its just how things goes.
hehe! don get it rite?
neither do i...
LOL

haixs
enough talking.
time to sleep man!
nites!

and btw!
it was fun hanging out again and happy birthday chermaine! :D

2010-05-15T23:05:00.000+08:00

My performance for the day is seriously no good. Its like wtf? it sucks to the max. i don kick properly, i don do it properly... feeling very discourage now. as if to give up.

But choosing the easy way out wont work, thats called running. running from the problem wont solve anything. From wushu, i learnt alot of things. All the different parts of life is all mixed together as one. so i now i just feel that i am not doing well enough, not well enough to keep up with the others. i am lousy, yes i agree. and i cant stand the pain, but i am willing to try. willing to keep moving on. the pain and hardwork is wats pulling me back. now all i have to do is push thru that limit. and that takes time. likewise for my studies. i find it hard to concentrate as teachers teach fast, readin b4 hand is a must in poly. well, maybe i don really blend in well yet, but i am trying to.

Its always in trying that i learn new stuffs, doing it wrongly and pointed out. doing it correctly and carry on. its just i don dare, fear comes in as a factor now. i don dare to REALLY try quite alot of stuff. but improving from it lo. contiune to strive from here ba, u still have a long way to go.

i think i am being a nusicance to someone. don tihnk its wise to contiune being like this, and is definitely irriationg to them. shall just keep quiet more often....

jiayi signing out now.

Veryowned-SIMPLICITY

2012

Blocks and chunks of stuff in my head.

Tired, but its not an excuse to stop

Devil?

Reminisce?

busy busy

Loved? or love?

SO LONG~

JOKES

mixed feeling

Crank....

lost, forgotten. thrown and gone. but still SIMPLY TIRED....

Feelings

Listen to my heart!

new wall

settling emotions

何維健 － 每時每刻 （Official 官方完整版）

filed time.

Sentosa~

思想

Late nite.

with great power, comes great responsibility.

Never give in to "give up"

欺骗着自己的我....

missing out?

A great birthday, by great ppls...

time...

can you just look at me?.....

Growing up.

"Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly."

想说的话.

Night sky.

Brand new days~

New stuffs.

A new start

Is this enough?

Weee, refreshed.

Satisfaction?...

a surprisee~

Devil, angels.

Confirmation Dress.

Sorry...that i loved you.

Christmas.

black or white

white... lies.

No U Hang Up

No U Hang Up

wind, grant me the power to move on....

shortpost.

frens from before till now.

fun day. bad ending.

LONG TIME SINCE I AM BACK....

iloveyou.

your call, my love...

Ever since that day.

HIAXS...

it ended.

...........

勇往直前面对难关绝不退缩....

Coach.教练.

another new week.

你就这样擦身而过...........

HAPPY but emoitonal day...

u helped...

number #100.

何維健－每時每刻（Official 官方完整版）